Sunday, September 13, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
It's been a while
Been a while since I wrote anything, here or otherwise. Love my classes, making a good start to the year but something is missing.
It seems like 24 hours in a day is too many, rather I just wish that someone would kick it while everyone else passes out.
Apartment is great, love my bedroom and the entire place, but my walls are way too bare. Plus I know jack shit about decorating so I just kind of put up some things I have but there's far too much plain space.
Mood lately been on an upward trend but to be honest last Wednesday was the first day I started to feel better since a few days after getting back out here - the one place in the world I wanted to be when I was stuck in Massachusetts. Why did I feel like shit? A whole number of reasons- and it just got way too hard to keep faking it, couldn't pretend I didn't feel awful anymore. Missed out on a great time last weekend because of it and while I regret not going out- not drinking and going wild was exactly what I needed at the time.
I'm trying to set some goals for this year but definitely not trying to throw all my eggs into a single basket.
This semester I just want to do well and live well. Gotta keep track of my cash, keep my head straight and surround myself with positivity.
Running on a bit of a short fuse, definitely will be doing my best not to snap at people.
Not much else to say, just needed to get my fingers moving on this keyboard in order to keep my thoughts quiet. This isn't very good practice but it is calming and any writing is just working towards what I want to do.
Too much thinking. Too too much.
It seems like 24 hours in a day is too many, rather I just wish that someone would kick it while everyone else passes out.
Apartment is great, love my bedroom and the entire place, but my walls are way too bare. Plus I know jack shit about decorating so I just kind of put up some things I have but there's far too much plain space.
Mood lately been on an upward trend but to be honest last Wednesday was the first day I started to feel better since a few days after getting back out here - the one place in the world I wanted to be when I was stuck in Massachusetts. Why did I feel like shit? A whole number of reasons- and it just got way too hard to keep faking it, couldn't pretend I didn't feel awful anymore. Missed out on a great time last weekend because of it and while I regret not going out- not drinking and going wild was exactly what I needed at the time.
I'm trying to set some goals for this year but definitely not trying to throw all my eggs into a single basket.
This semester I just want to do well and live well. Gotta keep track of my cash, keep my head straight and surround myself with positivity.
Running on a bit of a short fuse, definitely will be doing my best not to snap at people.
Not much else to say, just needed to get my fingers moving on this keyboard in order to keep my thoughts quiet. This isn't very good practice but it is calming and any writing is just working towards what I want to do.
Too much thinking. Too too much.
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